maternity

so my mother is in the mist of one of her dramatic mood swings. instead of being annoying and happy and ridiculous, she's all spiteful. it's the kind of day (or perhaps longer, who knows) where she will fester in front of the television and be menacing. she'll threaten to break dishes if no one starts rinsing them, she'll scream violently at the cat for bothering her and she'll try in vain to castrate my father with her bitching.

she is in a bad mood so she'll naturally want to beat everyone else's spirit down to her own dismal level. as she learned from the mother she hates, if she feels angry or stupid she should just make everyone fear her until we become submissive to her irrationality.

it's this cycle of learned behavior that makes me want to staple my uterus shut. i'm way too much like my mother when it comes to fluctuating behavior and disposition. it's borderline abusive.